Money sucks.
I did our taxes and "discovered" that we sold an obscene amount of stock this year: roughly equal to twice my yearly salary. We have cashed out stock three times to pay off bills, then racked the bills up again.
I have no self-discipline, whether it is in regards to food, money, exercise, whatever. And Jack can't say no to anyone he loves who desires something.
We did have some large unexpected expenses this summer, and an ill-advised, although wonderful, expensive vacation.
If we don't get a handle on this right now, I am certain that I will lose my husband; either through divorce or worse. (He told me the other night that "You will buy a black dress before I declare bankruptcy." Now there's a cheerful thought.)
He is a bit melodramatic, in that we are not close to being in straits that dire, but this coming on the heels of his job situation (see 1/31 blog entry,) has caused the stress in our house, which is often substantial due to a bizarre combination of individual family members' psychological challenges, to reach epic proportions. Oh, and let's not forget that I will get NO paycheck this month due to unpaid sick time off work.
I dont' know what to do for the short term. We've devised a realistic budget, and have so far (for three whole days!) managed to record every dime that goes out. At our current rate of financial obligation, however, it will take us five years to pay off all the credit card debt.
Selling off more, perhaps the last?, of his securities is simply not an option. At least not until we have enough months of staying within our budget to show ourselves that we can do it.
The two things that most commonly end second marriages are arguments over money and child-rearing practices. We have distinct challenges in both arenas.
I. Am. Scared.
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